Sie ist weg... und ich bin wieder allein allein...

My sister is leaving tomorrow , and I'm so fcuking depressed .... Words are avoiding me....

I have received my university offer letter , yay !
The only problem is, according to them I'm 24! well, if they insist, no problemo amigo!

Iran... It's what "I ran" from.



p.s. First member of the family flew to AUS , curse is broken now.
p.s.2. Remember that IELTS? Well it didn't happen , registration and other stuff , now it will happen in 2 weeks from now. Did not study :S

I have just 1 month to get ready for IELTS (and of course from the scratch) :s
I pray for more gray cells in ma brain !
Wish me luck !

p.s. can't switch my accent from American to Australian in just one month , how about that ?! :s

To go or not to go... This is the question.

p.s.Australia

I'm not a good person. I'm not even a bad person.
Frankly, I don't think I am a person.

- Says who, that you can't wash your rug with a washing machine ? The only problem is , how to iron it now ?!!

I'm standing under a mistletoe , wondering if anyone would come...

Guys are all the same , in a weird way.

My heart is being squeezed so hard these days that I'm expecting a full glass of heart-juice any minute.

It hurts , or even worse , it "khurts"

Those who suffer the most , are the ones who don't know what do they want.

I'm still wondering , how come you called me on my cell from the garden , while you were sitting right beside me? How come one of you was not you , and if you , I mean , one of you is not you then who the hell is you ?!! I mean the other you , not the one that is you! SO you started to chase me while I was asking you to help me escape from you. I still wonder who was "you" and why were you not you in the other you.
Or maybe I was High ?!!

Every single tear that falls from my eyes every single day, will pray to make them feel the way they made me feel every single day….

She tore them up , ... finally... after all those years.
In the trash cans all around the city , now he shall exist.
May they Rest In Peace ..............!!!!!!!!!

No one can break me... They can just break my heart , but they can't break me...
Time to be tough !
and to be more strong than ever.
Shine is rising up again.

Jerk..!
Yeah that's what you are.

Thinking about the woman , who used to wear mini skirts and had black hair.
The one who used to lay on the bed and laugh loudly...
and then thinking about you who think about the woman who didn't use to wear mini skirts , or even skirts at all , and had no black hair.
The one who used to lay on the bed and cry quietly...
The bed under which lived a short snake , a short snake who used to shower daily and laugh for no reason...
Don't open your eyes... It's been years that there's no woman lying on the bed...
Even the snake is gone...
A track of it's dried saliva has remained under the bed...
I am gone too...
And no woman has black hair anymore...

Regret... of the lost calendar and the broken clock...
Staring at my picture reflected in the eyes of a woman who sold her soul to lust...
Remembering the child who wrote me philosophy...
and loved me...
There wasn't any untold words for you in my silence..
Except the bitter taste of the wall you made for me by your own hands..
Up to the sky ,... to infinity...
The woman...
The woman who trickled her tear drop on the ground....
The ground on which nobody existed...
The woman hidden in masks made of skin and flesh and blood...
Leave me alone.... I'm neither this nor that....

UNLOCK THESE SECRETS IN ME...