I need to be on a boat today , on the still blue beautiful arms of the ocean... I need to wear my bikini and sunglasses, I need to be lost on the ocean , I need to reach to a tropical island where nobody has ever headed,....
I need to have the island for my own , I need non of my technology stuff work , neither the cellphone , nor the transmitter , ...
I need to build a shelter for myself on the beach for the rains , I need to pick fruits for my food , I need to discover the jungle and caves , I need to plant my favourite things , I need to hear nothing but the sounds of ocean waves and song of rain,.... I need to be free of anything in this world and have the island for me,... I need to name the island after myself , an island which is not on any map , I need to be free and alone ,... with out anything special to do........

but instead all these , ... I'm sitting in my office , on a day which is not even a working day , listening to a crappy music which one of my colleagues has turned on too loud , and doing a difficult job which I don't even like... :(

Speaking of the Island, I can not deny that I am under the impression of LOST series :)

I like being a non stop Crazy Girl with my old God damn fuckin Style !
Don't know why, but it makes me feel good !
I count it as a complement ;)

[Although it kinda reminds me of Crazy Frog ! again don't know why]

I am happy today
I am proud today
I am today today...

Feels something in the middle... I am not dead , but not alive for sure...
The huge waves of tiredness takes me inside,...
All I need , is LONG time remedy....

My head is explorin.... Time is passing by, Still a lot to do,.. I'm so far behind of every thing , .... The more I run the less I reach...
I need a big help.
I need a big break.
I need to relax.....................

p.s: Roni where are you................

I wanna run away to a place where nobody knows my name.....
I wanna be alone.........
I wanna be free........
Free......
Free......
Free......

I feel NASTY inside..........

"When there's a will , there's a way"
And i found the way to my wills...........

p.s: I don't even know what the hell is this blog!!! I'm thinking of translating my main blog (My Own Nothingness) posts in this one.... yeah, may be I will Sometime....

Tomorrow is the "big day".................

Have you ever been that much happy that you can't understand whether you're laughin' or cryin'?! I was like this today!

I wanna thank the angles, the God, the Goddesses, my things (!), Them, or whoever made this day for me.
My prayers came true, Finally !!
and now I'm the happiest girl ever !

Yes! At last it came, i need it baaaad, so baaad, and now that I have seen it I know that how much I want it. I am used to get what i really really want, i have to get it, this is my life and it's just depending on them.
And today i pray!
I pray to get what i want, I know you won't disappoint me as you've never did before, Let me through in my new world.......
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh besides all stresses, i feel GREAT for just being there ......

I love you my Sweet Lord, just move a little bit of your pointing finger and everything will be done perfectly!

Yours sincerely

Sometimes I just feel like I wanna write in a different language, the way i sometimes think different , the way i act different, doesn't matter how creepy it would be, or how wonderful, it's just my thoughts in a different way!