- Hey listen , I feel you had a strange sorrow in your eyes when I saw you just for a moment yesterday.
- Yeah...
- It is a strange sort of sadness specially when you some how enjoy the pain , you feel like a saint or Jesus or something.
- Yeah....
-I mean it's a physiological matter , when you enjoy the pain and ....
- Yeah....
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(Yeah that's me....)

You can do it....
Yes you can...

My little sorrows
My big sorrows
Those which no one ever saw
Those which remained untold
Not even written
Those which will ruin me in the end
How strong they appear today.....

so embrace the flowers of fall
and remember the rain
which will ever weep over landscapes
wide and gray
and feel the rivers
flowing into the waters of life
through oblivion is a mightier water
so majestic, so cold,
so fathomless deep....

(Lacrimas Profundere - Black Swans)