January 24, 2010
Born in May 1978
January 14, 2010
January 12, 2010
November 08, 2009
The only problem is, according to them I'm 24! well, if they insist, no problemo amigo!
October 31, 2009
p.s. First member of the family flew to AUS , curse is broken now.
p.s.2. Remember that IELTS? Well it didn't happen , registration and other stuff , now it will happen in 2 weeks from now. Did not study :S
July 28, 2009
I pray for more gray cells in ma brain !
Wish me luck !
p.s. can't switch my accent from American to Australian in just one month , how about that ?! :s
May 17, 2009
March 15, 2009
Frankly, I don't think I am a person.
March 12, 2009
February 28, 2009
February 14, 2009
February 09, 2009
It hurts , or even worse , it "khurts"
January 28, 2009
January 22, 2009
Or maybe I was High ?!!
December 02, 2008
Every single tear that falls from my eyes every single day, will pray to make them feel the way they made me feel every single day….
June 19, 2008
In the trash cans all around the city , now he shall exist.
May they Rest In Peace ..............!!!!!!!!!
May 07, 2008
Time to be tough !
and to be more strong than ever.
Shine is rising up again.
April 27, 2008
Yeah that's what you are.
February 26, 2008
The one who used to lay on the bed and laugh loudly...
and then thinking about you who think about the woman who didn't use to wear mini skirts , or even skirts at all , and had no black hair.
The one who used to lay on the bed and cry quietly...
The bed under which lived a short snake , a short snake who used to shower daily and laugh for no reason...
Don't open your eyes... It's been years that there's no woman lying on the bed...
Even the snake is gone...
A track of it's dried saliva has remained under the bed...
I am gone too...
And no woman has black hair anymore...
Staring at my picture reflected in the eyes of a woman who sold her soul to lust...
Remembering the child who wrote me philosophy...
and loved me...
There wasn't any untold words for you in my silence..
Except the bitter taste of the wall you made for me by your own hands..
Up to the sky ,... to infinity...
The woman who trickled her tear drop on the ground....
The ground on which nobody existed...
The woman hidden in masks made of skin and flesh and blood...
Leave me alone.... I'm neither this nor that....
February 24, 2008
February 13, 2008
Shall my soul rest in peace !
February 12, 2008
January 31, 2008
- It is a strange sort of sadness specially when you some how enjoy the pain , you feel like a saint or Jesus or something.
-I mean it's a physiological matter , when you enjoy the pain and ....
(Yeah that's me....)
January 29, 2008
Yes you can...
January 17, 2008
My big sorrows
Those which no one ever saw
Those which remained untold
Not even written
Those which will ruin me in the end
How strong they appear today.....
January 15, 2008
and remember the rain
which will ever weep over landscapes
wide and gray
and feel the rivers
flowing into the waters of life
through oblivion is a mightier water
so majestic, so cold,
so fathomless deep....
(Lacrimas Profundere - Black Swans)
December 30, 2007
Not a single cigarette left,
Not a single person to borrow a cigarette left,
Not a single resolution for not wanting a cigarette left,
So I'm leaving !
December 27, 2007
that the soothing light
at the end of your tunnel
is just a freight train
coming your way .......!
December 26, 2007
Hidden cutlet and cucumbers in brown bag
Six-months-old toothache and three-days-old ones
Smell of unforgettable alive wounds
Lack of fairness
Disgusting smell of shitty life
Hermes purse and PRADA shoes
Missing faraway sweetheart
Far away soul mate...
Memories of beach and beer in redbull bottle
Five pages of yellow letter in laptop bag and fear of not having stamps..
Killing meetings in fifth floor
Five aversion to five things
And sorrows of nothingness...
Today , .... Not much different than everyday....
Old age is on it's way....................
My colorful look
My still hair under a wind which has not blown in years...
Blue melody of a violin and the empty window
and a death which takes you away from me... slowly ...slowly..
and the disgusting look of my people.....
so do my eyes
and this black ring
will keep your mind off of my black thoughts
and that's the beauty of it....
December 24, 2007
But not the same
Into your eyes
My face remains....
December 13, 2007
People Break My Heart....
December 10, 2007
He didn't hear it , he got distracted.... A hot girl was passing by............
November 28, 2007
Some one hates me here....
I tried so hard to be loved , but in the end...........
November 26, 2007
November 21, 2007
But I do all these.... 'cause I'm a liar...
I just wanna put on my shabby jeans and creepy boots and my loose jacket , I want my hair to be wild and ruffled.... I wanna smell like my cheap Sandal wood perfume... I wanna walk into the woods and smell the rain... I wanna touch the trees and smell them all they long.... I wanna jump and run... I wanna dance like I've never danced before... I wanna cry with loud voice and not be embarrassed.... I wanna speak to my self loudly... I wanna talk to the plants and kiss them... I wanna love myself the way I am .... I wanna be free.......
But I don't do these..... 'cause I'm a liar...
I am a big fat liar...
November 20, 2007
AND NOW SO UNSURE...................................
November 18, 2007
I shouldn't be doing this
I shouldn't be doing this
Somebody stop me
November 06, 2007
Shorter than a breath,
Longer than a life......
October 16, 2007
Où rien ne meurt jamais
J'ai fait ce long,
Ce doux voyage........
October 09, 2007
mildewed and smoldering , fundamental differing.....
October 01, 2007
This is dedicated to you.
To you that I miss like hell... To you that I had my best time with... To khezershahr o darya sar.. to beach and drunken nights... To rain and us... To driving in rain and sun , day and night... To all the CRAZY things we did together... To all the laughs.... To the feelings I had and have for you... To Farmanieh ... To chips o mast!... To hiding from the others... To Botri bazi... To the smell of your perfume... To the softness of your hair... To the beauty of your face... To the tenderness of your hands... To you who left me here alone...
September 23, 2007
Yeah , me neither !!!
September 12, 2007
September 06, 2007
Can any book be finished by a sentence more beautiful , and at the same time more soft and simple than this.....?
September 03, 2007
I'm a weirdo
What the Hell I'm doing here
I don't belong here
.............Where do I belong anyway?
August 30, 2007
I need to have the island for my own , I need non of my technology stuff work , neither the cellphone , nor the transmitter , ...
I need to build a shelter for myself on the beach for the rains , I need to pick fruits for my food , I need to discover the jungle and caves , I need to plant my favourite things , I need to hear nothing but the sounds of ocean waves and song of rain,.... I need to be free of anything in this world and have the island for me,... I need to name the island after myself , an island which is not on any map , I need to be free and alone ,... with out anything special to do........
but instead all these , ... I'm sitting in my office , on a day which is not even a working day , listening to a crappy music which one of my colleagues has turned on too loud , and doing a difficult job which I don't even like... :(
Speaking of the Island, I can not deny that I am under the impression of LOST series :)
August 27, 2007
Don't know why, but it makes me feel good !
I count it as a complement ;)
[Although it kinda reminds me of Crazy Frog ! again don't know why]
August 23, 2007
I am proud today
I am today today...
July 05, 2007
The huge waves of tiredness takes me inside,...
All I need , is LONG time remedy....
March 04, 2007
I need a big help.
I need a big break.
I need to relax.....................
p.s: Roni where are you................
February 07, 2007
I wanna be alone.........
I wanna be free........
January 31, 2007
August 31, 2006
And i found the way to my wills...........
p.s: I don't even know what the hell is this blog!!! I'm thinking of translating my main blog (My Own Nothingness) posts in this one.... yeah, may be I will Sometime....
August 26, 2006
August 23, 2006
I wanna thank the angles, the God, the Goddesses, my things (!), Them, or whoever made this day for me.
My prayers came true, Finally !!
and now I'm the happiest girl ever !
August 21, 2006
Yes! At last it came, i need it baaaad, so baaad, and now that I have seen it I know that how much I want it. I am used to get what i really really want, i have to get it, this is my life and it's just depending on them.
And today i pray!
I pray to get what i want, I know you won't disappoint me as you've never did before, Let me through in my new world.......
Ahhhhhhhhhhhh besides all stresses, i feel GREAT for just being there ......
I love you my Sweet Lord, just move a little bit of your pointing finger and everything will be done perfectly!
Sometimes I just feel like I wanna write in a different language, the way i sometimes think different , the way i act different, doesn't matter how creepy it would be, or how wonderful, it's just my thoughts in a different way!